I don't think you deserved it
But u got it

I thought u deserved it
And you got it

this is life man.

I don't think you deserved it
But u got it

I thought u deserved it
And you got it

this is life man.

my brother

I think my brother is awfully brave. Because right now he is w like ten other people, all older than him, and they have known each other before today, and he's learning capoeira from them. I would definitely have chickened out. I wonder how it is going..
But I also wish its ending I'm so tired I wanna go home:(

when something big, something exciting or something bad happens to you. i think the people who you first turn to and tell them are those who really matter, people who really know you. because then you know that the words they say and the advice they give are the most accurate since they know you best.

i almost took a smoke again today.

but then i keep telling myself not to fall back in,
and to have hope.
but quite hard ah

F1 vs MidAutumn Festival

ah i realise i have been spamming my blog recently. maybe i just need an outlet to talk to. hahaha how pathetic does that sound. anyway next friday would be ba yue zhong qiu. the midautumn festival once again.

earlier this week, i was actually looking at all the F1 shows advertisement, and being spammed by emails and messages in facebook about all the F1 parties with extremely expensive covers and alot of hyped up nonsense and road closures and stuff like this. its not only this weekend. its like becoming a trend. more and more malls selling expensive designer stuff, greater pressure on living the good life, on having the branded and the best of everything. Even eating a nice decent meal has become pretty expensive! i felt quite worried, its like Singapore is moving towards being a very attas country. I wondered, if there will be a place left for the not so well to do Singaporeans say, ten years down the road.

I was randomly thinking about this on my way home [the long journey home from school] yesterday. If i were to choose to stay in singapore, get married and have kids, what kind of environment will my children be growing up in? A very stressful system where people only recognise you for the number of As you have in your cert and the amount of money you have in your bank? Where family time between myself and them would probably evolve around the to and fro trips we make to tuition centers and enrichments places? Would my children still celebrate these traditional festivals like the midautumn where the family gets together to light those paper 20c per piece lanterns and eat mooncakes - or would they rather stay at home and play with their WII or PSP?

I was really heartened as i went for a short loook at the festival celebrations in my estate just now. i saw like a group of 100 over children all happily carrying their lighted lanterns and going for a walk around the estate. But really, i wonder how long more can these traditions last.

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

we rest, so we can travel further

tonight dinner w the family was rather funny. we were exchanging the vulgarities that we knew. haha.

its recess week but its flying too fast. seriously. im just looking forward to elearning week. hahaha. quite evil but well cant help it. i really hate travelling to and fro school! ive been treasureing my recess week trying to study. but quite hard cos i seem to be needing ALOT of sleep.

on a side note its ladies night tonighttt :D

the route less taken

i felt very miserable and alone.
its times like those, i wondered about the many points in life when i made a decision, if it was a wrong one. if i were to retrace my steps and choose again, how different would life be?

i think its also these times that reminds me not to be too trusting, to be too dependent. and then i go back hiding in my own four walls again.

28days past!

i typed a pretty long post, like earlier this week but sadly it got lost in the net. so here i am typing another one, though not similar anymore.

its been 4 weeks of school! 2 more weeks to recess, and like less than 10 weeks to the december holidays, then its taiwan!! im pretty excited about school this sem, cos like my modules are those i carefully chose and plan to make my timetable as nice as possible. and im gonna study hard every weekday so that i can enjoy my weekend playing and resting n chilling. :) and im proud to say that i have not slept a single wink in lecture! woohoo!

i had an interesting ssa lecture 2 weeks ago.
question we discussed was that we work for the income, so that we can buy the things that we want/need in life. say if i work very hard and like buy my own hse and enough clothingand shoes to live a lifetime. then i wont need any more. then i neednt work. right? then what is life about?