its been a long while

its kinda hard blogging with facebook present. everyone barely updates anymore, even myself because facebook is almost equivalent to life. probably even more, because you can never know what your friend has done unless she blogs it down, but with facebook - all the status updates and pictures and shoutouts plus the presence of twitter has made blogging really useless in my opinion.

but i shall try to be a loyal fan heh.

anyway schools out. yes school is out. :D :D :D
actually this sem i did not really hate school. i had a pretty nice and chill timetable, which did not often require me to wake up and think if i should skip school because i wanna sleep in. i ony hated the travelling. seriously. and i doubt that would change anytime or anyhow in the next few semesters unless someone is nice to buy me a car haha. otherwise i guess its 3 hours plus of travelling - unchanged.

this semester was pretty ok i feel. kinda flew past just like that, its quite scary becuase if i do not stick on to do my honours or wander off halfway to partake in any activities, i am ready to join the workforce in 3 sems time. which is one an a half yr. :0 just the thought of this makes me wanna do honours lol. i hope my results will improve this sem, and hopefully my capcan be pulled to >3. this sem is really my best record man, no clubbing on wednesdays at all. i only slept like twice in class [cz lectures] and i din pon mroe than 5 lectures, which were all webcasted. hehe. and i studied for my exams and tests, maybe not the hardest but defnitely mroe than sem1and2. so im keeping my fingers crossed and hope my results show my effort.

on the other hand, norway is like impending. submission of all the documents are due next mar1. nus has approved. parents have given consent. all is ready except norway's approval and cash in the pocket. i have estimated a 20k total for the whole exchange - and i think its time to start working for the money. im looking out for tuition assignments, maybe 3 for next year so that i can have a good steady savings. and for may-aug i will probably need to work. 20k is like almost impossible but i shall work hard for the next 9 months, so that the following 5 months can be a good experience and i am not so constrained by money issues :)

warwick?

tonight i went to the airport for 3 farewells. for royce chan, stephanie sim and yong long. to send them off with our best wishes as they three embark on a new journey of their lives to warwick.

there were alot of people, quite a bit of tears shed, many photos taken and hugs given. and i kept wondering, if my family were rich enought to pay off for an education in the uk or if i got an A for my go and secured a scholarship, i could have been one of the ones leaving tonight, i could be the one with passport in hand waving farewell to my dearest loved ones and friends. i wonder how different life would be.

and i cant stop wondering about it.

taking a leap and letting go of the familiar

the past one week has been insane. i think i am really really really going mad. ohhhhmygod! and perhaps i should stop being so brave its not a very good thing sometimes.

on a sidenote, i think there is that small slight possiblity that im just seeking the thrill of chasing for something very impossible. which makes me ponder about the things/people that i love/have once loved in life. its like when you long very much for something, but upon geting it you will be disappointed and not treasure it fully. i miss the fourleaves cheese bread that mommy hasnt bought for a long time, so today i went to buy a loaf. but it really doesnt taste as good as i remember [while i was pining to eat it.] same goes for the jb city square kim gary restaurant mango snow ice, i rmbed it to be THAT great and smoooth and shiok, but when i dragged the whole kukup gang the other time, i was quite disappointed with what i got. was it purely expectations that ruined the way i felt about things?

schools starting like REALLY soon. in 6 days time it would be the orientation week. which i forced myself to sign up for, 8 days. im gonna make the best of it and try to make as many friends as possible. hopefully everyone hasnt formed their cliques and are willing to mingle around. i hate it when its orientation but everyone sticks to the people they know. funny how when i recall, i rmb nth of vj's orientation, nothing at all. i dun even have the orientation pack! and of tj's orientation i rmb that i told joanna i dun like the first impression tt simin gave, hahaha so funny. and i rmb glendon being damm chiong and we totally love the cheese pie cheer. and and the fire warriors! and i rmb the mass dance that we spend like 2 or 3 afternoons dancing to, in the hall that was hot and stuffy and smelly! and i remember of temaseks orientation even, when eric and joontat and beverly were my grpmates. and i was such fast friends with bev then. and all the psl games that we played! the one on the bench and the whacko games and the many days of running around. ahaha. they always say that people are more protective of themselves and more guardful, more withdrawn when they grow older. nevertheless, im keeping my fingers crossed that it isnt true and i will have a good time at orientation. :)