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hiya ppl.. sry ar.. sooo long nva update.. been a realli long time.. mayb i shld juzrecall a lil.. new year was nt bad.. kinda had a few new year wishes.. hope dey can come true this year.. although dey nva do.. =(
spend new year's eve and new year's dae playing poker cards, chanting and sleeping only.. cuz my grandpa passed awae one 29 dec.. monday night.. tat was my first time seeing someone die.. i felt so lost wen bout 11 plus, my maid told us he was not moving anymroe... he juz look so calm and peaceful.. finally he isnt suffering anymore.. as he laid in his sleep.. aft i called all my aunties... i began 2 realise.. tat i would not haf a grandpa frm tat moment onwards.. it dawned upon mi tat some one whom i had called "gd morning" , " gd night" and times b4 meals 2 eat for almost 15 years of my life.. would be gone.. tears began 2 fall as i look at my granpa for most probably e last 24hrs of my life... e next morning, ppl already came 2 clean him and he was rested in2 e coffin where it was immediately sealed.. nails hammered in2.. tat was e last time i saw my grandpa.
now tat itz been almost 3 weeks since he passsed awae.. we've almost settled into life.. but once i a while wen i return home, i realli miss e feeling of calling him 2 tell him tat im back, or calling him 2 eat b4 meal times..
chi new year has also passed and i spend e whole time mostly lazing at home.. cuz i couldnt go out visiting.. so this yr was kinda a bore.. but it also reminded mi of all e years in my life, wen i would happily change into my new yr clothes and wish my grandpa and grandma happi new yr right aft e reunion dinner.. this yr there wasnt such a chance..
life being a sec 3 is rather lousy.. i dun rilly noe mani of my new klasmates.. although alot r frm 2e4'2003 =p alot of new faces.. alot of new characters 2 get used 2. time 2 make frenz again. and lessons arent tat easy 2 learn. i haf no close frenz sitting directly bside mi.. so itz soo boring. alwae sleeping in klas.. dunno how ill die fer my exams siahz.. hope my results wun deproved alot..
v tired and sick.. n my right eye feels damm sore on e upper lid.. and jo and sher r buggin mi 2 go see doctor.. my best frenz so concerned =) but dey is damm lor so!!! walau.. like cannot stop one lehz.. mayb tml i would go see a doctor. MAYBE. sher v confident told mi sae wun haf injection.. onli gel. but i scare lehz.. i dun wan 2 eat medicine or take injections.. neitehr do i wanna go see e doctor.. hate em =p hope tml will b betta..
my aunt in hospital.. yest take 4 pkts of blood. 2dae operation.. haiz.. i hope she's fine. mayb ill squeeze out some time tml night go visit her.. i hope she look normal. pls bless her 2 b fine. sigh..
this yr hasnt been a great start at all.. i hope something gd happen soon.. i realli need a change, b4 i realli collaspe wit al these around mi =(
btw, happi bdae 2 shuyu~ ur 15~~! =)