.life's a tumbled mess.

back.. from 2 camps.. psl and choir. psl was fun. amazing race was cool and my stations rocked xcept e suntec one. din kinda worked out fer dat part.. confidence walk suked.. cuz it was stopped earli and our station kinda went screwed.. apart frm tat everything was ok.. choir camp was ok.. stil e same as previous years.. but at least we had games, cuz bb camp was like worse den us. but sat morning i realli haf noi enegry.. i dun rmb e activites xcept e pictionarycharades and e truth n false part.. cuz b4 tat i was sleeping awae. like a pig. im stil feeling damm dead tired n restless now..
i feel tat im brimming wit emotions.. itz like filling a cup wit water.. itz almost 2 e brim.. almost flowing.. but i cant stop e water flow.. likewise i cant stop feeling this wae.. i feel like crying laughing screaming at life.. it seemz so weird.. e ones we yearn for so much will nva bother 2 care.. but e ones who care for us are ppl whom we often overlook and take for granted.. i feel like im going crazy..
i like him.
i like him so much..
i like him so much tat i hate him..
i hate him..
i hate him alot..
i hate him till i like him..
does this make sensE?
i wish it does.. cuz 2 mi it doesnt, but tatz wad i feel..

aft knowing bout tat during e p5 camp.. i dun feel like seeing him again.. i wished he was juz an illusion.. but i miss him 2.. i long 2 hear him stupid jokes and his abnormal laughter.. i wanna see his stupid face again.. i miss him.. i realli do..