u know.. certains thinga haf different types of impacts on us? n itz different for all of us.. mayb e sight of sumone u lurve might make ur heart skip a beat.. maybe a lemon can make u feel so sour n u screw ur eye brows? many things also haf their impacts on mi..
a cold cococnut : e cold n juicy flesh n e sweet and nice smelling juice.. it makes mi feel like im on heaven.
u know his msn nick? e way he toks bout her? it makes mi quiver inside. yet on e outside.. i relali dunno how 2 show how im feeling. i feel like im going crazy.. i feel like im going insane. i feel like crying. i realli feel like breaking down n cry. bt i cant.. there's stil tml. there's stil e geog test tml.. there's still sch tml.. i need 2 cont going on.. there's badminton wit john on fri.. there's 6.9 gathering on 1st sep. i cant juz break down now... bt i also dun know how 2 go on w/o breaking down. i feel so.... vulnerable inside. bt no matter wad. it shld alwaes b deep down. on e outside... i must keep it ewae it is. be happy. go insane. nobody would care.


u know wad i feel like doing now? go off e lights.. off my phone. make sure nobody can contact mi. blast e music. and haf e policy of isolation. [oh fk history]... cry till i sleep. and wen i wake up... cry again.. till i sleep. i dun feel like seeing anybody now. i dun wanna tok 2 anybody now. i wish e wrold can stop turning for once. juz stop there... let mi haf a break. awae from computers sch hw frenz him hp and everything.. haiz.. bt is tt possible? no. life stil muz go on.


so now i muz go study. cramm all e damm knowledge in my head. den go to sleep. tml i wake up, things would b fine again. i would b e same old mi. smiling and happy. n ill pass my test. n ill face my 40 klasmates and freaking annoying teachers with respect and gif em e attention they need. and ill haf choir and face miss lye. ill concentrate and learn everything she teaches. I'll b fine tml.. i need to be fine. i must be fine.