damm tired. this week haf been crawling so slowly. i wish e hols would juz come. but there's cca class n psl. darn x.X been realli busy planning for clean up n cleaning up e den, today. e den's real dusty. tough job cleaning it up. itz got a new look, i kinda like it. we look like e fun ppl, yet got mo shui. haha. Wait. we ARE fun ppl wit mo shui ;) tml is e sh clean up, e major event ecoteens planned for quite sum tym. but i dunno lei, i haf this bad feelin tt smth will go wrong. well, i hope e bad feeling is tt my gut feeling is wrong. =x dun let anything screw up tml pls. -begs-

feel kinda worried bout my surroundings recently. ppl whom i tot i knew haf changed, sum haf became foreign. it sims like i dun noe em anymore. they do things tt i dun understand. n i wish i do. can tym turn back to e old tyms? most probably not i guess. but i wish things were e same, nth would b as complicated as now. now i feel so foreign. =( haf i changed or haf e ppl 'round mi changed?

i hate being treated like a replacement. it feels so unfair. juz a temporary thing.. i hope u noe who r u. leave mi alone-

truth has finally shot thru. despite everything i had sum tym 2 think bout stuff. reality has knocked into me. n it hurts, big tym.