[suggested 2 b ignored. juz a post 2 complain non stop. kaka, complain queen wannabe]

-results day one-
i feel trashed. haix.. kinda disappointed, but couldnt vent or voice my displeasure. cuz nobody seem 2 understand. hahaz.. mayb onli tug does i guess. ttz y im like complaining 2 him non stop [geez.. im sry. hahaz.. well, u listened thru ur complains during ur prelim. so pls bear wit mi =p]everybody felt tt i did well, n shldnt complain. true lar.. i din fail any subj.. but i missed my target. n like for all 4 papers, chem phys e n a maths.. i miss by more den 15 marks. how nice :s
e maths got 33/40 for P1, not too bad in my opinion. but not rilli alot of careless mistakes for once =) but P2, which was suppose 2 b an easy paper.. wasnt done as well. =( got 37/50. sumhow.. i got alot of careless mistakes, n time management n e comprehension of e qn wasnt there i think. so overall i got 77%, while she got a whoppin 94%. one of e onli 2 subj which i could haf beat her down e drain. n seriously, i dun realli udnerstand why i did so badly. still figuring out... =x
chemiStry e other subj tt i hoped 2 beat her, but sadly.. i failed too. kinda dissapointed wit e mcq, wasted like a couple of marks on stuff i knew, n sect b n c was badly done, n was due to alot of marks gone under periodic table tt chap. din realli listen in klas aft e sep hols while mr lim was teachin, n din study for tt chap.. =.= so kinda too late to turn back tym i guess.
a maths this one i kinda angry wit myself. cuz my tym management sukx. n i was abit lazy i think. got calculator dun use. lose 14 marks.. :@ n i got 68, while she got... 91. n my dEAR sis n chor has been rubbing salt in my wound all afternoon. argh.. im gonna work harder next yr, cant beat her in this subj nvm.. but at least try 2 hit an A2.
physics. hmm.. this paper i got 72. actualli not 2 badly done, sect a. but sect b n c are like.. mark losers. all e velocity qn were badly done =( i dun understand y until now i stil cannot understand tt chap. mayb i shld try was kel saes.. understand concept, instead of memorising formulas. mayb tt might help. but im gonna try harder next yr for phys =) itz been one big challenge ever since i come 2 sec 3. n itz still one big challenge aft a whole yr..
u noe.. 2dae imp called mi a loser. suddenly it seem 2 trigger sum urgency to think wher i wanna go. sumtimes i realli admire him. first he can play so well in hockey. 2ndly though his results ain tt gd, he doesnt gifs up n keeps trying. 3rdly, he noes where he wanna b. he noes where he wanna go aft e O's. yet im stil living everydae as it comes along. not planning wher i wanna go. even kel noes where he wanna go. sumhow im stil clueless to where my future leads to.. haiz..
tml will gonna b a dreadful dae. eng papers. cl papers. geog papers. ss n hist. all my weaker subj all tgt. sumhow i haf this instinct tt sumthing bad is gonnna happen. pls dun let mi fail my eng! =| i dunno. juz hope tt things will b alrite.
mr toh saed sumthing realli inspiring todae. okok.. he quoted w.churchill.
success is defined as the no lack of enthusiasm after failing
sumhow i feel tt this is v true. no matter how many tyms u get knocked down, u're not a failure until u gif up trying 2 stand up again. =) so though she has trashed mi this tym, im gonna pick myself up, keep a positive attitude n keep trying. =)