tis feels gd. sitting here relaxing, chatting w tug n blogging. e pass week has been hectic, realli hectic. there was e common test, el p2 was ok lar. i dun realli rmb bout it. but e essay was interesting lei, hahas. kinda v practical n family-based. a maths was alrite, since der were so few topics tested, but i kinda made a couple of careless mistakes! den e chi p1 was.. alright la. i kinda wrote alot, did qn 3 bout choir. hahas. writing it almost made mi cry. n i think i wrote li ti..,which means i might fail[ im keeping my fingers crossed] well, wadz done is done. also had e QA test,which i did okae, though i felt like shooting myself for forgetting e numbers n balancng my equations. e hist test was alrite too.. but it kinda changed how e week ended la.
i dunno if itz my fault for making a mountain out of tt molehill. i was really mad la. being so tired n stressed n stuff, yet he still did tt. it realli blew mi off. aft calming down n thinking thru it, i realised mabbe ya.. it was my fault. perhaps jo was right, he juz wanted 2 make my job easier. but on e other hand, perhaps i expected too much. i expected him 2 know mi well enuff 2 do things e wae i wan. i guess i was expecting too much. den i realised, actualli i dun noe much bout him myself. i began questioning wad i knew bout him, i doubt my ans would b enuff to even fill a page. sumhow... perhaps.. probably... idunno. if i could turn back time, mabbe i would change sum things. maybe we started on a wrong basis aft all.
right now i dunno wad i shld do. gif up juz like dat? i realli dunno. e stress tt sch is giving is more den i can bear, i dun wan 2 think bout it. i guess juz keeping him out of my private space temporary is all i can do, but........ i miss him.
eric's kinda right. he noticed tt nowadaes he doesnt eat his food slowly 2 enjoy it. he juz gobbles. me too. every recess its either a pau or i dun eat, cuz i'll b busy doing my hw or too tired 2 eat. or i would eat a heavier meal, cuz i need 2 attend 2 smth during my lunch time. even my family's kinda pissed my me, cuz im alwaes like psing em for dinner 2 sleep or i eat in like 5 mins. arrggh. im losing my life.
studying w tat qh chor n cheryl darl was fun. though it din come frm e studying, but e foto taking parts n e those tt we were talking bout food or panadol or marriage parts laa. haha. itss kinda cool how we all haf different views, and i muz sae tt my views do contradict each otehr. hahas. true la, i wun wanna b alone. haha. not "end up like those uncle downstair playing chess'.... but like wad cheryl saes. i realli cant "imagine waking up with e same person for e next 30 yrs, doing e same thigns tgt, sweeping e same floor....... {and e last pat is censored}..." itz kinda true though. but like wad qh saes, wen e right person comes along, perhaps tt feeling would come too. fun fun fun. mabbe we do tt again next week kae? =D
i kinda screw up my sleeping hrs recentlyt, im like already in lala land by e time itz 10pm. but i neednt feel realli guilty anywae, mr bro's is having his psle this yr n he studies as much as i watch tv [which is practically almost 0] and out of e 10 times i come home from sumwhere, 9 times he's sleeping. e other one time he's probably eating or watchinv e telly. hah. mabbe im not so pig aft all. he inherited my sleeping genes. im getting sleepy. perhaps i shld go sleep now. i juz sat here 2 type 2 destress. but it sumhow juz makes mi wanna sleep. =x