sentosa was fun. though i dun rmb doind anything. really got tanned. perhaps burnt is a better word to show e extent. though i din see e sun. cheryl says tehre are uv rays.
christine's birthday party was, crowd-ful. she looked grreat. downtown looked e same. e cake was .. interesting.
its been 3 days.
okie, ttz aft i counted e days off manually from e calender. it feels like weeks or months.
i feel drained mentally. e pass few days i've been constantly bombarded with e whys and whats.. and e thing is that i really dun know how 2 phrase it. then the best thing 2 ask me, am i happier now?
honestly.. i got stumped. its like hitting e nail on e head or howeva u sae it.
no, i dun get e celebratory feeeling cheryl says im suppose 2 b getting. i dun feel totally happy or relived. but i feel a bit better then how i've previously felt.
i miss him. i miss him so much.
sumtimes i feel like juz msging him out of e blue, but i dunno wad 2 say anymore. i'll juz b at e screen for mi 2 write msges, staring at it blankly. yest i finally texted him. it was a really silly msg, but i sent it b4 my logical thinking stopped me. i dunno, i would have done it w/o a thought previously... yet yesterday it felt really weird.
he was right, we'll still be friends. good friends. gd frenz. 2 simple words tt make e insides of me churn n turn into a million and one knots.
i kept everything we've ever shared. e wristband.. e ring.. e movie stubs.. e dog tag. i stringed eevrything tgt. in e order of occurence [except e wristband].. itz amazing how these little ojects can bring back so much memories. i've changed e way i save his name in my phone, moved all his msges to a folder tt i wun ever open, i hope. ive cleared everything tt will remind me of him. tml onwards, its gonna b a brand new start =)