i havnt blogged for... exactly 6 months. wow. a long time isnt it. from a 16 yr old who completed my O's, to e victorian student i am now.. life has indeed been a roller coaster life for me. so many things have happened. many transitions. many new things in life. many choices i made. many frens i chose and many first times. many mugging days. many new things learnt. many long nights. many homework to do. many stuff to catch up on. many tears shed. many smiles. actually in short, many changes in my life.

dec was spent.. well i dun rewally rmb anymore. wasnt really a gd part of last yr so it doesnt matter if its part of e forgotten.

i spend my first 3 months in tjc. made a few gd frens there. had not too bad a time. tj is indeed a gd school. e ppl there were warm n nice, e teachers were relatively alright and e food was fantastic. i was rather unhappy there initially, cos i still haboured e hope of being able to be posted to vj aft e 1st 3 months. call me mad , but i spend my nights at home reading e vj cosiety blog, keeping myself updated with e events happening there.. even though i din noe like any close frens there.. just a few sch mates so i couldnt really get updates from them. but i soon got used to e life in tj, and was settled in netball there. training with e yr ones n ips was a gd experience as e ppl was really ncie n friendly.

just as everything started to become a routine, e o level results came out.

i got seven points : with a B3 for my geog, an A2 for my comb humans and an A1 for eng, chi, maths, amaths, chem , phys. honestly, i was far from my goal, but i knew tt i had done my very best.. gave my all so had no regrets. but at e same time, i did not feel any burst of joy.. perhaps cos i've alr moved on. adapting to e jc system. perhaps to me e journey matters so much more den e results i get in e end.. wad i saw more impt than tt result slip was e ppl who i was graduating with. e friends ive made over the four yrs in sec school life, was moreimportant to me. bcos i noe tt 2 yrs down e road, e a lvl cert would easily replace e o lvl cert, but e frens i made in jc would not outshine those i have in sec school. e experience was also a thing tt i hope wil be kept in my memories forever :) but i did shed my fair share of tears when cehryl came over to congratulate n hug me, but i dun noe why i was crying. crying becos e sec sch journey is officially over? or perhaps it was her hug tt was a reminder that i still had a great fren like her, that made me broke down.

a few weeks aft e results i got a letter from e sch, tt i was e overall top student in e school. honestly, this position was something tt was never once in my goals. i never aimed towards tt goal, probably cos i never tot tt it was within reach. it was a gd experience for me to deliver a speech on stage, but i felt better was the experience to have a good almost 2 hr chat with the vp, mrs tan in her office. i got to know her better and it was indeed my honour.

so fast... i've spent 12 weeks being a vj student alr. i can fondly recall e 12 weeks.. and how much i changed.

t1 w10 : on mon night i was posted to vj. honestly tt week was e worse week i ever had, i felt so small in e school, lonely n lost. it was totally alien to me, i knew practically nobody.. there was no homely feeling like tms or tj, where i knew like at least some ppl whereever i go. tt week, i kept asking myself, so this is e palce u fought for for so long. 2 times my first choice and 2 times e appeals. there was this question , this uncertainty : would i have been happier if i satyed at tj instead?

march hols : this week was alright.. celebrated cheryl's bdae by watchin e date movie. it was EWWWWWW. bu aiyah i htin kshe had fun, tts e pt i guess =) i totally dreaded e start of school. i keep wondering if i'll ever make frens, becos it seems to be so impossible.

t2w1 : lessons satrted. at e crazy rate. i was rushing like mad.. trying to catch up with wadever they are teaching, trying my best to memorise my classmates names.. getting to noe them better, trying to fit in with them.. and also attedning e amke ups to catch up e gazillion load of stuff tt we missed out on. but still felt rather down n depressed cos of not adapting to e new sch.

t2w2:week rushed past damm quickly. lotsa of tutorials n long lectures. and i got a cca!! interact club.

t2w3:another mad rush week.. full of stuff to do. attended e speech day.. started getting used to life there, e loneliness became quite bearable aft a while. i grew clsoer to ming, si hua and jenny, so i hang out with them during sch lessons n breaks.

t2w4: started setting up e alumni.. had vj sports day. it was good to find gd frens to hang out with, but i was stll very not used that we dun like hang out all e time.. like how e gang used to... for e whole day of sch we'll stick tgt tt kind, but well, contentment is imot i guess =)

t2w5: had mockspa n lecture tests. i din do well for e tests... but i am not discouraged. i will keep working hard!! and i started to get use to e life in vj. it slowly becomes a routine alr.

t2w6 : got e grping for pw around this time, when i first got my grp i din noe them so well, but over time e interactions i think we're much clsoer now, and im glad t my grp members haf stayed tgt even during e hardest times.

t2w7:election week. e hols were mostly taken up for spa/pw/tutorials.. so felt really drained n sometimes, i started to wonder if i could give up. cos it was really attractive a thing to do. oh yar.. had a gang outing.. to eat laksa den we went to tiefu's hse to play pool, and thereafter ending e day with a basketball match. met e gang for dinner to chat too..

t2w8:finally went out with glen n yl to e tj choir concert at e end of e week. before tt e week was again alot of hw n hw n hw.

t2w9: more test failures. chi internal orals [22/30]. other than that e week was alright with quite a slcky timetable cos make up ended!!!

t2w10: crazy week. lotsa early dismissal n stuff. damm short week.

perhaps time seems to haf past so quickly, but if there's one thing tt cahnged most abt me, its how i felt abt e school.

i noe of vjsch spirit, but e past few weeks have evidently prove to me how powerful it is. from one who totally dun noe how 2 sing e sch song, ive watched enuff matches played by e sch teams to learn e song n i can sing it with pride during assembly =)

ive also learn many sch cheers when watching e sport games, softball, basketball, soccer boys soccer girls. no matter whetehr we won or lose, we cheered our hearts out. n i saw how e sports ppl played, how they gave their all to fulfill their target. their fighting spirit is truly impressive.

just e day b4, i watched e soccer girls beat tj 2-0 in e finals. and yesterday was e match we have waited for for so long. e soccer finals against mjc, which got e title last yr. e atmosphere was so intense, i wanted our boys to win so badly tt couldnt help crying wehn mj scored e first goal against us n held tt victory over us until e 2nd half. we only scored e equaliser aft many attemots in e 2nd half, trying time n again to break their strong def while def n trying to stop them from scooring too. we finally socred e equaliser n vj was so happy. but our joy was short lived as mj scored yet another goal to take e lead again!! this time our sch tried to tie e score again but it took hell alot of tactics n patieence to do tt. initially ming n me were quite dishearted alr cos we were aft tt time was running out n if we din score e equaliser soon we might lose to them. but we continued our "fight on vj!" cheer to spur e guys on cos we could see tt hey were indeed giving their 101% to score while keeping a good defense against mj. it waas onli in e last 15 mins tt we scored e equaliser. at e last 15 mins e score was tied at 2 love. after tt, e game was totally at its peak man. e whole vj was standing n watching e game intently, everyone screaming all might whenever we get possession of e ball. our guys scored a 3rd goal in e last 4 mins of e game n vj totally brought e whole hse down with our cheer bcos we finally are leading against them... we were finally one pt up against them. perhaps it was e high morale tt e team had, e euphoria tt gave them e surge of energy to score one mroe goal, or perhaps we were lucky, but one guy did a great job at dribbling e ball past 2 defenders n e goal keeper to score one mroe goal. with that goal, e score stood at 4-2, in vj's favour n e whistle was blown in less than 30 s aft tt. our boys went crazy. our school went crazy. i went crazy n started crying n screaming too. though i ahevnt trained with e team nor went thru as much hardship as e guys to fight for e title, but watching how e guys worked their way thru every match, to bring e championship titles back to e school was damm impressive. it was so great a victory tt i starting shedding tears of joy when cheering n screaming. i think tt was e loudest i have ever cheered in my life. e loudest i have ever screamed. e proudest i ever felt. e determination tt our soccer boys had, e fact tt they never once gave up on themselves even though they were lagging bhind for a good part of e game is indeed smth i would like to learn, n tt match is gonna b one i'll rmb for a long long time.
noe wad? m alr looking forward to next yr's championships.
v! viva! viva la victoria!!!

yep . so tt kinda wrapps up all i ahave to say. a really long entry huh... oh yea. im beginning to feel like joining e girls soccer team, cos vj has really changed my perspective of soccer.. n it isnt a stupid game with 20 over ppl chasing aft one ball alr. to me now, soccer is a game which actually can bond ppl so well into a team, and indeed, impossible is nothing!

anyway i will update more soon, since its e holiday alr. but for this month,. its gonna b a busy period for me too. anyway haf alot of rest ppl. recharge n get rdy for e new term!

happy hols :)