totally crappy day. a wasted lousy moody sunday. i realise with amazement how i always spend my weekdays lookng forward to weekkdays. cos i dun usually do much on weekdays.

i feel like giving up. at least mayb not care anymore.

today i visited my granny. she aged alot, it pains me to see her asking e same ques again n again, despite having replied her so many times. will i be like tt when im old? sometimes i wonder wad keeps her living? e fact she's just waiting for time ? or cos of her faith in religon tt gives her something to live for? suddenly i realise how lonely she must be, living alone at home. without my grandpa. doesnt she feels lonely? i wonder how my life will be when im of her age?

i quarreled with y mom today agin. for like the 4th time this week. twice today. over e same issue. i usddenly feel like running away. im considering going to my granny there to stay. going to sch would b convenient. but can i adapt to e lifestyle there? yea actually i can. haha. just buy 5 pkt of instant noodles there. one for each night of dinner. mayb if i really cant take it i would do tt for a week or 2. heh/

ok la im really sian. i just hope e week ahead wun be super rough or anything. Mayb if I think of wad bad can befall me, den I wun b shocked when it happens. Ah hah. Foresight. Im beginning to spout rubbish I think. Well, here's to a better week ahead =)