todays been a rather sickly day. i kind of lost my stomach n taste buds i think. :( i ate duck porridge and drank bitter gourd soup. thats all. plus one cup of orange juice. plus super beancurd! hmmmm diet man. haha. i waaaannnnnna eat la. argh. why dun i feel hungry?

feeling very tired and down. dunno why also. there's family3 tml, i hope i will feel more high` otherwise e kids sure sian also. i must make it fun for them! i hope i will have too, i love carnivals, but havent been one to so so so long. unless u count e tj one, but tt one nt counted cos i had a stall. i like walking carnivals and pasar malams. to see all the messy stuff. and unhygienic food. and the ppl shouting lelong lelong. very homely <3

this morning i met janice from ylf. had a good talk over breakfast. kind of gd to share all my dreams n tots with her, and also listen about hers. it was really easy to tlak to her, even though shes actually a complete stranger to me. anyway she kind of made me realise how true life is. and how important priorities were. and making e right decisions.

im volunteering to help plan their events. guess im going to be more busy from now, but it would be good i believe. proirities. get them right.

i was actually v depressed today la. stupid caroline, thinking so much, dreaming so much. haha sometims i like to step out of myself n look at myself n laugh. also thinking of things so far ahead n wishing n wishing like a stupid fool that they will come true den when its gone i'll be depressed. haix. caroline ar caroline.. zhen ben`

cheryl was really nice, had a gd chat with her last night. thanks dear for trying so hard to help, to make things work. even when it doesnt involve u. *muacks, and big hug* =)

ok im tired, im going to try get some sleep.