im feeling super down, physically sick and theres also a sickly feeling in my stomach, and like all my intestines are chunning tgt rounds n rounds.
i hate this feeling. like the world is gonna end, like im gonna die, like shit.



suddenly i feel very tired... very alone.
there's so many things to face up to, pw oral presentation, ocip and the medical checkup tmr and the chi A's.
it feels like i have to go thru this period of time a few times a year, the time when all the hidden feelings are undug and reveal, and salt is poured on it.
the feeling when i wanna drop everything and do nothing. give up everything and restart things all over again, but can this be done?



and tis during this time, when i wan someone to talk to, i dunno who to approach. is there someone there? i wonder.