wow it has only been 3 days since i last updated, but it sure feels like a century ago! alot has happened, but mostly unhappy stuff or i was just too tired to update.

lemme tell u the best thing tt happened, trng has resumed! and i tell u this past 3 days has done adverse stuff on my legs! trng on wed so super super tiring cos we ran to ecp and did so much ballwork round the hall my legs were damm wobby. den they say there was a test on fri, but i din noe wad test they were talking abt, and someone told me its 8 suicideS!!! i was like WOW.

so yesterday , despite aching legs i went to practise my suicides. after doing 4, i felt so freaking exhuasted i stopped. best timing was 35s and the worst was like 48s!!

den today, it was actually a pacing test, that has like many levels and it feels like u;re some controlled game character. amanda was the ebst and she went to level 9. i think i stopped at level 5 and it seriously was FREAKING tiring i wanted to cry and give up and all. thanks to the whole team who cheered me on =) my target is to reach level 7 the next test! its actually a beeping thing tt beeps at a constant rate for like 10 times each level, as u are suppose to run 20m b4 each beeps, den as the level proceeds it becomes shorter n shorter time. den if u miss 2 consecutive beeps u are out. cool right. quite interesting lei.

and i watched the prestige on thurs with sihua mingyee wenlong and tiefu, it is a damm good show man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 seriously the plot rocks my socks and the graphics is super cool and interesting. its like not those bimbotic shows / comedies tt i always watch but those chim ones tt need u to focus n follow or u'll be damm lost tt kind and it was long [138 mins] but it was definitely worth the 4 bucks to cab down to cs and the 7 bucks for the tix. go watch it man!! though there are some parts, its really gross.

other den trng n e movie, i guess life has been pretty much the same. other than being really really fed up with some stuff though. actually im onli really angry for the first 1 minute, and after tt i feel more of a disappointment, its tt disappointing anger. people, whom i used to be proud of, whom i used to be thankful for, whom i could rely on in the past... seems to have changed. to become mroe selfish. more irresposible. more irritating.

den again, i ask, is it my own fault?

i really dont know.
i just wanna hang on and keep peace. for now.
but if they take any steps further, i wonder if i would blow.