yay finally its over!! OVER OVER OVER!!
NO MORE PROMOS.
i feel really happy. that outburst of euphoria i felt on thurs was stunning, it was so much more intense than how i felt when the o's ended.
but this promos is really a lot more different la..
at least i do want the promos to end.
and i feel very tired from the whole school term,
and i think i lost a big part of me, that probably would be for good.
and i also learnt more about the people i know.

been a rather unpleasant journey the past few weeks, thanks to the people who've stood by me, and also to those who try to keep in touch with me. especially tug for ur constant encouragement and cheryl for ur daily kisses. and to ming n sihua who've mugged with me in school.

econs was the first paper and it wasnt too bad, at least i had stuff to write, which i later on found out asnt like relevent, but well, at least i handed up 3 hours worth of efforts.

physics was the worst paper i have ever have. the feeling of doing the paper was so bad, that deep sinking feeling of desperation when i realise that i dun actually do know how to do anything much! so i just subbed the few equations here and there and it was a really disappointing piece of work tt i handed up, one tt i dun really wanna put my name on.

chem paper was bad too, cos so much of grp 2 and 7 came out, which i wasnt really prepared. but it wasnt that bad as phys cos i managed to cock up some chemical facts, haha which i really hope are right!!

math was doable, much more a better paper den the mid yrs, and its probably the best paper for this promos.

ok so overall, i think my math n econs shld be safe from the r-paper range. but for my sciences... im not too sure. :(

aft the math paper yesterday ming sihua and me went to eat at siglap den we went to orchard, and we walked from ps to far east. walau was so freaking tired my loegs felt like they would break anytime and i felt asleep on the train that i almost missed my stop. we spent alot of money and had alot of fun and ate alot of food. laughed our hearts out and tried on so many clothings. so fun, girls lets go towning soon again!

i had a gd time going swimming at jurong swimming complex today. haha i just love floating around the lazy river and the wave pool. and sliding down those slides. so fun!!!!!! i wanna go there again soon, if i dun feel so tired! haha! aft tt i met ming tiefu wenlong and anghong at some hawker center, supposedly to see the moon. lol wenlongs idea la!! hah we ended up sitting there chit chatting, but i totally enjoyed myself just sitting there talking abt nothing. lets do taht soon again man! when im not like so tired n exhauste and the place is nicely air coned. =)

and today when i saw miss chia i felt so guilty, her comments this time was really directed toways " dont be lazy!" and there were like a million of errors that are like shouting out tt its an error but we din do anything to it. plan laziness? or we dun care? den she asked... is everyone doing their equal and fair share of work?
i feel like a really failed group leader. :(
but i think now i noe wad to do already. please give me enuff time and will to do wad i wanna do.

the past week haf had been like a mental test for me. to stay focused and to concentrate on the important things. a few times i wandered around, but i think things have already found its way.

i try finding a new wallet for myself, or a wallet that feels like my old one.
trying very hard, but i dun really want a new one. the mere thought of it really scares me, like something so impossible so far away. but then again when i think about how my old wallet is not gonna hold on any much longer, like the holes are gonna break apart the wallet soon, i cant bear to continue using the old wallet. more time, mayb... to find and really like the new wallet.

ok a really long post, but its really good to jsut sit here in front of the comp screen, bathing in the rays of the comp and typing and typing. ok im gonna sleep. hopefully chalk up like 12 hours! =)