i think death is often one topic that we seldom think abt, nor talk about it. like today, after the morning assembly when we were all still busy discussing abt spa, and trying the bet of rmb and cramp everything into our heads when we were dropped the news. honestly, i wasnt really affected, because i din really noe the person. but to hear that happening to a fellow victorian, someone my age, i was stunned. the first thing tt came to my mind was how upset her parents must be, and the 2nd thing tt hit me was how fragile life actually is. and the 3rd thing, was wad if that was me.

thought alot on the way home. its like how when daddy told me tt my uncle's brother passed away like 1 day aft CNY, i was like ok. and not really affected cos he's like a really distant relative and he's quite old, 60plus. but today it was someone that ive probably met before, someone my age, maybe she's even a few months younger then me. den it hit me, death doesnt only come knocking on ur door after u become a senior citizen. it can really happen anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

den i tot wad if it was me, well after al i did run yesterday too. i immediately tot abt never being able to return home again, never being able to hug my parents, scold my brother or disturb my maid while shes cooking. ill never be able to eat my fave food and maybe gossip with the girls and eat thaippan n go for trng with mingyee. and most importantly, my dreams - that husband i wanna marry, the family i wanna set up, the 4 children, i wanna have, the car n house n career i wanna have, the days when my parents grow old n i wanna be here for them. in fact im not even too sure where i'll go. seriously i became very frightened, of dying.

but seriously theres nth much to do, except to really live your life, and dun have any regrets. n take care of urself ppl! i love all of you =)