hot hot day. like its 31degress now n im sweating as i sit down trying to blog. a totally wasted weekend, sleeping alot cos work on fri was so exhausting, with e usual tuition, an extremely bad experience of interact, n i wasted all my other free time watching hanakimi. work was a gd time, after that tt was what kept me thru e week, for some reason. but this time work was much different from the previous weeks cos of andrewangs presence -.- n i cant say how much i dislike the manager. haha. ok acty im just biased towards her i guess. and well i must say hanakimi is a fuking waste of my time. great story, interesting characters but seriously a super screwed ending. n i din shed a single tear during the entire 15 episodes =) e middle was really good. until like the 12th episode la. argh piss me off. interact was with a problematic child, and shes only pri 1. trying to get her to learn how 2 spell chair n table in more than an hour was an honest test of my patience. but looking at her learn, reminds me of my p sch days, when i was a really happy kid. i think her life is really complicated, even at her tender age. n when another teacher told her to pay attention, she even pointed her middle finger. it really made me wonder if i really want 4 kids. hahahah i tink maybe tt needs some reconsdiering.

alot of commitments i made this week. the twice a month dinner with e gang, the ocip trip whcih i m really keen on, young leaders day, one deg asia, smun. sometimes i wonder, if im wearing too big a hat for my head. and ive decided to add another change to my life, i hope it sticks thru n the new me would be a better one.

i sense that this is going to be a rough week ahead, the sunday's alr started out badly. i really want to have a good heart to heart talk, but i dun noe who will understand. n i wish that people, arent separated by religion, cos it seems to be tearing me away from one of my closest fren. shld i tolerate? or voice my unhappiness n risk the frenship? seems like alot is at stake.

and im surprised. i tot i did it, but apparently im still stuck in the mud. god noes why. why??

i feel like going for a long long run. alone.