i feel very upset.

hati went to interview today for new employers, which means tt she would really be leaving us soon, probably in a months time. on one hand im really hopeful that she will find good employers, bcos she is a good maid after all. but on the other hand, i really dun wan her to leave. cos shes been much more den a maid to me, shes more like my godmmom la. she knows me better den my parents, she scolds me more fiercely than my parents and she smses me everyday! what am i going to do without her man.

n i felt even mre miserable when she started crying like mad jsut now cos her auntie passed away. i felt so helpless n could only hug her n rub her shoulders while she cried n cried.

i really want someone to talk to now, but i dun think anyone would understand. or maybe, perhaps i just need some silence.

being happy is easy. pretending to be, is extremely hard.