small me, big world

i feel like this the whole day. small and tiny. quite amazing how much im letting these things affect me, maybe im not as brave as i thought. nor as confident as i thought i was. nor as sure of myself. that faith i had in myself just disappeared like a bubble bursting. maybe im just more silly than i actually think i am. caroline caroline, maybe its time to stop being a little girl. behave like a lady and join mingjennhua.

anyway on another note, lionel got a new comp.

like ok lor. a bigger n nicer comp lor. and he even upgraded his modem to get a wireless thingy so he can now tap on my wireless for my laptop lor. and he even paid extra for a nice soundwolfer[sp?] thingy so now his music play can play loud loud lor. and still sound like home theatre lor. and his room still got tv n two beds lor. and hes only 14 and also din do well in school lor. :(

ok i sound like such a whiny little kid. i pray darn hard he wun read the above para. haha.

but its kind of cool cos we are like talking over msn. like even though i can just shout out n he can hear me. we can play yahoo pool la! so cool right. HEHE. and i think im gonna camp in his room and watch like alot alot alot alot alot of shows when the as are over. hehehhehehehehe.

jiayou ppl! last week before it all begins...