its been 3 weeks since ive worked at stan chart. ok, i must say im really thankful and grateful for given the internship opportunity to work there. but it really bores me to hell cos i really dun have anything to do, ok nothing much. ok at the small areas of work that needs my assistance then it would be given to me. so like last week, for mon, wed, thurs and fri i did absolutely nothing. from 9am to 6pm. ok how abt 915am [cos i dun even bother gg on time anymore] and 545pm [ cos i will be in the toilet getting ready to leace and oacking my stuf and bag]. all i have done is email ming yee, read forums and read news and read ebooks. but its been a good eye opener for me to see how things go in a banking and finance department, espeically one specialisin in finace and numbers.

so... now im really certain that banking and finance is def nt something i will pursue in uni. thank you standchart. but the uncertainty now is, when do i leave??

i know i shouldnt be complaining that i have nothing to do at work, cos im given free money and stuff; but if u really know me well i think u will know that i really rather be busy with my both hands full. so ya, but the jobs good the peoples cool. at least, i can scout for my next job [and maybe even sneak out for interviews while at work] so tt i can secure my next employment. =)

right now its really drawing super close to the release of the A level results. so htere is this huge big talk abt where to go next. and honestly, or once i dun have my sights set on anything really confirmed. if i stay in singapore, it would most prob be ntu, business deg. and im considering to go to warwick to take a deg in management. but honestly, there is no part of me that is dying to be there, like send appeals after appeals. and im afraid this might show in my letter esp while applying to warwick.

and honestly, i dont know if i should stay or leave. there are a few big factors that im taking into considerrations, and im nt having much leeway thinking about it. ok there are about 2 factors that have been decided on, but i still have the rest to consider. i guess i need to really prepare by next week.

and last night was one of the best nights ive had this yr. the 22/2, dinnered with tf ah and ming. i got my 4 bottles! :)

and i found the courage to walk away from the wall.
i have found and gather the contents of the box, and ive even found a temporary owner for it. now all i need is the box. but im still uncertain as to whether i will bear to put the necklace in.