My results is such a pain so dun ask me if i did well or not.
i got A for Phys Chem Econs and Math.
but a D for my GP.
decide for urself if its good. or not.

from 2.30 till now, been like 10 hrs since i knew of my results. but i havent felt a single bit of happiness abt it. no pride no joy. but its not the other way round either, i dun feel sad abt it, nor disappointment.

i just feel blank.


i think the rat race is scary, perhaps i dont belong. i feel very veri tired from running so hard, constantly trying to be the top, to be the elites. i wonder about the decisions ive made in the past 2 years, the person ive become. and more importantly the things i have lost.

i think i lost caroline somewhere.
im feeling so tired now, i feel like taking a holiday. alone. to find her back.
but where can i go?