taking a leap and letting go of the familiar
the past one week has been insane. i think i am really really really going mad. ohhhhmygod! and perhaps i should stop being so brave its not a very good thing sometimes.
on a sidenote, i think there is that small slight possiblity that im just seeking the thrill of chasing for something very impossible. which makes me ponder about the things/people that i love/have once loved in life. its like when you long very much for something, but upon geting it you will be disappointed and not treasure it fully. i miss the fourleaves cheese bread that mommy hasnt bought for a long time, so today i went to buy a loaf. but it really doesnt taste as good as i remember [while i was pining to eat it.] same goes for the jb city square kim gary restaurant mango snow ice, i rmbed it to be THAT great and smoooth and shiok, but when i dragged the whole kukup gang the other time, i was quite disappointed with what i got. was it purely expectations that ruined the way i felt about things?
schools starting like REALLY soon. in 6 days time it would be the orientation week. which i forced myself to sign up for, 8 days. im gonna make the best of it and try to make as many friends as possible. hopefully everyone hasnt formed their cliques and are willing to mingle around. i hate it when its orientation but everyone sticks to the people they know. funny how when i recall, i rmb nth of vj's orientation, nothing at all. i dun even have the orientation pack! and of tj's orientation i rmb that i told joanna i dun like the first impression tt simin gave, hahaha so funny. and i rmb glendon being damm chiong and we totally love the cheese pie cheer. and and the fire warriors! and i rmb the mass dance that we spend like 2 or 3 afternoons dancing to, in the hall that was hot and stuffy and smelly! and i remember of temaseks orientation even, when eric and joontat and beverly were my grpmates. and i was such fast friends with bev then. and all the psl games that we played! the one on the bench and the whacko games and the many days of running around. ahaha. they always say that people are more protective of themselves and more guardful, more withdrawn when they grow older. nevertheless, im keeping my fingers crossed that it isnt true and i will have a good time at orientation. :)