i dun think u wanna read the text below. ;/

sigh.. its late on a sunday night, and once again im trying to rush out assignments. i flip all 7 chapters of probability by Yannis fucking Y. but no, no clues at all to doing all the 4 questions. this is seriously owning me upside down, and probablity paper is the first paper [on the 25th] yayness. seriously makes me wonder, so is this what an education is about? where u go the the exam knowing nothing much, trying to squeeze 7 chapters of notes (and hopefully solutions to 10 tutorials) into 4 sides of an A4 paper that u bring to the exam hall. are assignments, which are eventually completed on the morning before submission, by copying from a friend's friend's friend? arghh... seriously. WHYYYY did i choose this path in life, many times i stop and ask.


recently on tv there is this new video, something by the family council of singapore aagin. when i first saw it on tv i was very moved by it. it talked about family and love and marriage, to see an imperfect person in a beautiful way.

and actually it scares me. i wonder if i will ever once again fall in love, get married and have a family. i admire my friends around me who are capable of keeping their relationship going, of staying true to one another even as long periods of time go by. sometimes i dun think i can even stay true to my partner even if i date. and what more, i dun see anyone around who can be the one. i think i have a problem with commitment, and maybe a problem with loving. or maybe the problem is just plain me.