im here again. aft many nights of disappointment, i stil havent given up. wad m i waiting for? i've no idea myself. absolutely no idea. juz hoping 2 hear from e special sumone.. ttz 4 sure. ive grew e habit of coming online 2 do a check. a routine. check frenster first.. den msn. when did this habit start, no idea. but sumhow i feel tt i wont stop. at least for now, i wun gif up.. maybe it was a mistake from e start, i shldnt have asked..den i wouldnt be hoping 4 miracles. used 2 believe in em, used 2 make wishes on stars.. but gave up for quite some time.
wen i looked out of my window juz now.. i saw a bright star in e dark sky.. unknowingly.. i made a wish.. maybe.. maybe miracles might happen this time. i hope they do.

dont keep hopes 2 high.. or dissappointment shall be greater