e past few dyas have been alright. nothing abnormal. okie smth happend on e night of world cups. yea.. smth tt seem to haf given me extra pressure these days.

and my france din win. they lost on penalities. =( and i lost a total of 122 bucks to sg pools. darn.

ok im actually really tired now. tt 3 rounds exhausted me out i guess. my legs are kinda aching now. cos i havent ran for , since napfa which was in may. haha. well my target : 10 rounds by e end of this yr!

ok my more of my results came back today.

i got a 47 for maths. ok la actually i tot i would get ungraded. cos i missed out so many questions. i counted wad. 50 marks i dunnno how 2 do. but i got 47 marks. so its a e i think. WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTtt. my paper is upon 90!!!!! lemme check e percentage. okie 52.22222%. which is technically still an e -.-
ok la actually when i got my results abck i was quite happy, cos it was waaaaay above my expectations. but den i look at e rest of e class. like 5 ppl got a? 1 person got b. i realsie my results were nth to b happy of man. so disappointing. like maths., my wore subj now. believe it or not.

and e results for e phys came out. like they ranked us. and i got 126 upon the 426 ppl who took phys. which isnt too bad i guess. at elast i am above ave. but... looking a the a's, there were like SO many of them. and there are like 20 over ppl who socre 85 and aobve la like how in e world do they do tt?!?! i feel like im on this ladder thingy. den each of us are like climbing to the top. all 426 of us. den im like below 125 ppl. and my goal is to overtake at least 50 ppl to be top 75 during promos.

oh yea chi came back too. i got 60 over percent . a B. okie i actuall did wel for my compo n oral. jsut tt i screwed up my p2 and failed the paper. i shld stop sleeping during chi n pay attention!!

im quite frustrated . i wish my parentw ould b more encouraing n not just gimme a black face when i tell them my reusklt. e fact tt i worked so hard to do well, n yet e reuslts come back this way, plus my efforts getting doubted. honestly sucks.

ok i asked myself, if i did put in my 100%. den i realise. i actually din. i din stretch myself to e limits actually. it was a comfortable ride. mayb i shld indeed work harder...

12 more weeks to promos.

not much time actually.

i wish we could talk more.
i wish we had more time tgt.

but we dun really haf anything to talk about actually. so instead of talking about nothing, mayb silence is better sometimes.

today i too ke bus to school alone again. den i realsied this whole yr i havent goine to school or leave school with a fren. ive been alone.
feels sad. n odd.
but actually, im used to it alr. so it doesnt feel so lonely anymore.

but i miss the company i used to have. =(

i like to run. it makes me tired n hot n all my angers n fears get forgotten with every step i take. after the run i feel exhausted and burnt out and i dun haf he energy to think of not important stuf.
run run run.

runaway.