amazing how e past 4 days can just fly. first like 2 days was spend with my pw grp chionging pw. den on sunday i was trying my best to do e wr with qh n tat help. den monday it all came crashing down.

seriously, it was a tight slap in e face for me.
n when we came to terms with facts, its e decision whether to restart or not. it pained me so much tt we gonna just STOP wadever shit we've done aft so many months. n redo everything again. aft so much effort in e wr. haiz.

last night in my few hrs of sleep i dreamt of how e 5 of us were crying n writing our wr , like in a sch hall exam. cold n shivering den we like so can, cry cry cry. but e ending v funny, onli dey noe . haha....

but today when miss chia told e class tt one grp has ran into a big prob n e mext few weeks is gonna b v difficult for us, i so felt like crying. cos im afriad, i dun wan to reach a pt when we jsut surrender to pw n give up. i felt like crying cos im really tired..

now e morale's low. everyone's in my grp must be hating pw lke FUCK now. me too, ok mayb i dun hate it tt much. so tiring to hate smth. but its just a BIG constant worry for me now. i dun like it, but im trying my best not to show. i must hang on, cos if even me give up on it, who's gonna like cont motivating e grp. n keep pushing them to move on n not give up.

mayb they are gonna hate me soon la, cos im like some wicked slave driver, keep forcing them to do work, meet deadlines. i pray they will understand.

im really glad dan's in e grp too, cos at least he motivates e group too. mayb he's right, maybe e ppl on top are just amking our lives super dificult for us, so tt we can proves ourselves. well tts very true. so to e one up there, i noe u're killing us, but at e end we're not gonna die , n we're gonna come out as stronger ppl, and u better give us our band ones.

today miss chia asked me if everyone's putting in equal efforts n if there's any probs in e grp, i wanted to tell her how tiring pw is. but i guess mayb she understands la, n im glad of e reply tt i told her. =) n i do hope in days to come, tts gonna be an unwavering truth.

gonna sleep. waking up to do work later again. bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to my team,

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and debts are high,

And you want to smile but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit…

Rest if you must—but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won if he’d stuck it out.

Don’t give up, though the pace seems slow

You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than

It seems to a faint and faltering man;

Often the struggler has given up

When he might have captured the victor's cup,

And he learned too late, when the night slippeddown,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are.

It may be near when it seems afar.

So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,

It's when things go wrongThat you mustn't quit.