the trip's tmr. im only half packed actually. very not ready. i wonder when i will feel geared up n ready for the trip. by 3pm tmr, i hope. but i feel very lazy la, and 10kg is so little i think my bag is gonna be severely overwight. how great. n i havent put in the food yeow choon n me gonna buy tmr, haha i think we gonna be v gd frens cos we gonna ration our food tgt n dun overeat so tt we haf enuff for the trip! =)

today i met up with qinghong and we had a good chat while pigging on chips n icecream! thanks alot sister, u're still the best! n im very glad u're taking things in ur stride, ill be praying for ur granny n im sure wherever she is now, she'll be really proud of u. those talk has really made me miss my grandpa, and i also realise once again how we shldnt take things for granted. i rmb it isnt so long ago when u said tt ur grandma also like to call u go to eat, like again n gaain n again aevery 10 mins. now its gone right? haiz. why do we only treasure the things tt we lost? normal human beings behaviour?? =( anyway sister, i promsie to bring u smth back from cambodia k! =)

the truth, often seems like the right way to go abt answering a question.

but when u questioned me today, it took me a hell lot of decisions to tell u the false answer, but anyway i told u the truth in the end.

so did it mattered?

yes i miss u, but is anything between us gonna change?

i miss you, or rather i miss the one whom i could talk abt anything to, to haf meals with, the company i got when i was down, and the listening ear i had when i needed one.. the one who used to shower so much love on me that i feel so thankful for each n every moment we had.

but the distance that has grown between us is so scary now, i dun think u are even the person whom i used to know anymore, and i cant blame u for that, cos people change. we all know that.

that you, the one i knew from sec 2 would definitely always be a little part of me that i will miss. but other than that i think its really beyond our reach. id rather move on to find a someone whom i can treasure again with all my heart,

maybe i shld do wad u do, blame it tt destiny is just making fun of us. if it makes it easier for the both of us...?

actually i kind of regret teling the truth, cos now i noe tt u have acty nt given up. i noe its unfair for me to ask u to, so i wun. as long as u are happy, i would be happy for u. =)

i think i have said all the things which i couldnt say just now. n im feeling really tired already. till the 1st, i'll see u ppl. take care, have lots of fun =)

to those who are finding life a bit.ch, take deep breathes and cool down. talk to people who can listen, even if they cant do anything much to help.

"cos when shared, happiness is doubled while sorrows are halved. " -qh

i wish u guys the strength to get out of ur problems. n of cus u can email me when im away, will reply by the 2nd =) ok im off. bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!