a depressing night. i feel so lousy n restless.
then i read about all the old entries tt i once wrote, all the way from last yr, from the time when i left tms, to the times i was in tj, to the vj times.
n i feel worst. oh well caroline, smile n take things easy! rmb this poem!!!

Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit…
Rest if you must—but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won if he’d stuck it out.
Don’t give up, though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late, when the night slippeddown,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It's when things go wrong That you mustn't quit.


oh well the lastest thing in my life is, i dun haf a maid anymore.
hail the housework!
sigh. acty i dun haf to do much, haha. just cook. :D
but i miss my maid, i hope she will contact me frequently.

the only good thing tt shes gone, which isnt exactly good acty cos i could haf just bought a new wardrobe is tt now i have extra set os drawers to put my stuff. i bought so much stuff recently, tt my stuff are falling out from my wardrobe. hah.


i need to let go.
call me a loser, but i really think part of me is still caught in history.
and i don't even know why.
maybe ing is right, a one off things with those no potentials will help. will it?