its 31st july. jc life seems to be ending really really soon, just as im beginning to feel slightly at home in school, just when i slowlybegin to look forward to school. well theres still about 3 months plus to go, i gotta make the best out of this.

today has been a really significant day, cos ming n my routine jog to ecp turned out really differently. ok la, admittedy we slacked n walked for almost half the distance we usually run, talking about issues and stuff. and we climbed on a breakwater and really thought about the things we want, the priorities we have. to me, it was like moments of connect 2, with more fun elements n distractions like watching small crabs climbing up the breakwater. i havent had such intellectual conversations with anyone for such a long time, it was a good wake up call. i screamt many wants and wishes, and i'll try my best to work for all of them. :) u too dearie, im sure u will find your happiness upon finishing those things u set out to do!

if you really know me well enough, i dont really get angry at people easily. and i dun like to remember these negative things cos i believe that its really tiring to hate someone. thats why im learning to love people universally! :) but today i got so freaking pissed by a fellow schoolmate. like seriously pissed. okay actually im over it now, but my blood was boiling this afternoon. i never knew that people could be so crude and uneducated in their actions, seriously, i think bitch is the only one word i have for her. ARGH!!!

things seem to be accelerating, and i wonder if its too fast. at least we are much closer than before, at least i can talk to you properly now. but im afraid that i'll get addicted to this routine of being so close to someone again. and fearful that im not ready for these all. in fact, im not even sure if you're in this together with me.