summation of all my random thoughts

i wondered how i would look like if im stick skinny.
imagine caroline, stick skinny. HAHAH not like a day like that would actually come la. i dun wanna be stick skinny anyway, think i will feel so weak i cant run around n play badminton anymore. maybe losing 10kg would be the optimum though, nono maybe 15kg.

i think im really not ready for many stuff thats happening so quicky, but somehow i seem to cant help but jump into things. i know there are many internal issues that i have within myself that i need to settle and deal with. there are things i need to get used to first. foundations that i need to lay down within myself. all these need to come.

today i finally found out how absolut peach really tastes like, cos i drank it on the rocks. the really strong sweet n fruity smell of peach, den the rounded taste tt it has in your mouth, the sharp distinct flavour when you swallow it, and the aftertaste of that hot scalded feeling down the throat. but i think i havent drank for so long, or maybe cos i drank too quickly.

i feel like everythings beginning to spin.
and i found the courage to do what i gotta do.