i wish i wasnt so stubborn.
i wish i was more understanding.
i wish i gave in more.
i wish i was less troublesome.
i wish i was less choosy.
i wish i was prettier.
i wish i was skinnier.
i wish i din fight back so much.
i wish i din have so many opinions.
i wish i din expect so much.
i wish i was funnier.
i wish i was smarter.
i wish i wasnt so childish.

but then, i probably won't be me.
and up till now, i really dun know if i would be happier.

i hoped and prayed hard to be a second chance, but there were none.
i wanted to stay near by, to be that friend i was again but i couldnt.
all i can do it wait......................
for christmas 2012.

but i know very well that in five years time it might never materialise.
we might not even be under the same sky anymore.
this is so not me, im never the kind who would waste my days again waiting. but i decided to give it a try anyway. probably becuase i dun have any other choice. i guess it will always remain that special part of me, nothing will replace it.

and i think its time to stop talking about this for a while.
i wont mention it anymore, hopefully the people around me wont too.