tomorrow!

man my operation is tomorrow. finally gave up the fight against operations and decided to go for the operation because im really unable to stand straight anymore and the pain is like ultimate. walking is limited to like twenty steps i think.

im damm scare. anyone who knew me from long before surely know of my fear of needles. now im gonna be poked, cut open and be put on drip! somemore no food for like one day! and i need to stay overnight. all these scares me, alot. like alot alot alot i feel like backing out.

but no choice - dont op how to walk from now on. now i can only try to be as brave as i can and then hopefully verything go well - then i can go back to school and all my activities! :)

im keeping my fingers crossed and having alot of faith in my doctor that i can come back - recovered from the surgery on tuesday. till then..