this is rather tiring. i feel like i am in this play, and everyone around me has a mask on their face. and immersed in a role that they have chosen to fit in with everything else around them, which isnt real in the first place. suddenly i feel that from this moment i should take what people say with a pinch of salt, maybe use my own radar and filter through to check if they are lying or not. then i will trust nobody. why cant life be simple and nice. when people genuinely love and care for each other :(