L.O.V.E.

Once again, it’s the big day for the many people out there. Valentines’ day, the day where the attached spend their time showing their love for one another and showering each other with gifts. Also, D day for the singles out there to express their feelings for the one they adore. I’ve spend the past few days walking around Raffles Place looking at the people, everyone’s in a big hurry scurrying from shop to shop to search for that perfect gift for their perfect special one. Even the florists have brought in extra stock of flowers to prepare for the big day resulting in the whole MRT area to be filled with this sweet smelling fragrance.

I’m really quite amazed at all the couples out there, being able to enjoy each others company and being in love. I’ve also thought back about the past few v days ive had. Last yr’s was spent in school and netball trng, plus a dinner with anghong and mingg [at tt pt in time the GAC wasn’t formed yet!]. And the yr before I was still in TJ I think, I rmb meeting a friend for a movie. Up till now I still have the tissue rose that I was given. I guess at that point in time the rose, though simple a gift, but it was of extreme importance to me. But now im still keeping it cos I just cant bear to throw it away. And the year before that, it was in sec 4, it was just a normal day where we exchanged presents. I rmb longing very hard for something but got even more disappointed cos things din go the way I wanted. And the yr before was in sec 3, it was a busy school day with psl meetings and stuff. So tt was the past 4 yrs. I wonder how the next 4 yrs of V day will be like.
After much much thought, ive come to realize that dating is really not something I can handle. I guess I’m still very much a little girl at heart, I still love myself more den I can love others. I’m selfish and so different and difficult to handle, thats why the relationships always end up going the wrong way. Sigh. Ok maybe there are those few who do love me, but I really would prefer tt the ones I love love me back. If only the world works this way eh. Seems like my dream of getting married and having a nice family with 4 children seems to be going further and further away, im losing faith in that belief that everyone deserves to feel that way, to feel loved and be loved.

But nevertheless, I think love is really really an amazing thing, though its not something within my reach this V day, I am still happy for the people who are staying tgt and going strong. Im glad at how ur other halfs are making you happy, happy for how you guys are completing each others lives. And I wish u guys all the best, treasure one another and have faith. And good luck to the courageous few who are gonna bare their haearts out tmr. Have a lovely day ahead.

Something I read while at work, which makes really good sense.

What Actually Love Is

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry?When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind,
but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried.For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him,
it's when he ignores you and still you long for him.
It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.

If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall.

Somehow along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize
there should never be regrets,only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

A true friend understands when you say, I forgot,
waits forever when you say, just a minute, stays when you say leave me alone,
opens the door even before you knock and says can I come in?

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.
Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we let go.

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
[see mingg this is my pt!]

Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most,
and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and
cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.

If you really love someone never let go,
don't believe that letting go means that you love best,
instead fight for your love, that's what true love is.

Laugh to your heart's content; you cannot go through life without it.