heavens..

when getting to the end seems so diffcult,
just dun give yourself the option of quitting.
there is no stopping.
there is no pain in the legs, no stiches. nothing physical.
just focus on the mind.
keep going, one step by one step.

i think thats the most valuable lesson i get from runningg. ran again today, felt so exhausted but i finished wad i set out to do. the feeling of completing it is like seventh heaven. and i think it is also about life isnt it? when all things seem so shitty and your goal seems to be getting further and further away, just dont ever give up on yourself.


and i think darren is godlike la.
he managed to help me push my ftt slot [which was all the way in bloody june] to this thurs. like OMG. which means there is hope for me to get my license by june. u know, this feels like eighth heaven. maybe we can even camp on the cdc website more and my driving test can be in may?? hehe. cdc is reallly gonna be my homepage. but its damm anal i tell you, it lags like HELL. but for now, i need to study really hard. the test seems difficult la!


and i went for a pedicure today, again. ok i noe i am suppose to be saving money for the driving lessons but i just couldnt help it. it just makes me happy, yea puts me in ninth heaven to have nicely polished and shaped and coloured nails. at least im giving my nails on my hands a break - no more manicure till my birthday!


and obviously, im up to the tenth heaven cos tomorrow is saturday. which means im GOING TO KUKUP! ok honestly i know i shld just chill and cool, cos its only kukup. bloody hell im not even taking a plane there and its only a few hrs of bus drive away. but hey, its with the company i love and i hope things will be fun. actually i already know its gonna be fun. hehehe.

have a good weekend people!

F is for faith.

i wished i had more faith. more trust. less doubts.
cos at the bottom of it all, when i really think about it i think
its
just
me.

suddenly i thought abt jt's phrase tt he has on his blog.

clear eyes, full hearts, cant lose.

ive gotten quite some advice, but i know thats not how i do things.
to me, this isnt like a game, there isnt complications.
to me, i should just be who i am. i should say the things i wanna say.
but maybe its time to think about all these again.

theres so so so so much i wanna eat.

• thecaffebar at parkway
• steamboat buffet
• DONUTS. like 12 to be shared between a few ppl.
• smoke salmon, just lots of it.
• 85 dinner with stingray n otah n satay n friedoyster n bakchormee n chickenwings n dessert n sugarcanejuice
• fishnchips
• KFC!

if only i can eat anything i want n all the calories goes to someone else.
maybe i would be the happiest girl on earth.

childrens day!

the bad times just makes the good times better.
cos i think each time something bad happens it moulds us to be stronger people:)

and i finally decided on what i wanna do! its so exciting i tell you. i like thought of it till i fell asleep last night n even dreamt of it during my sleep la! hopefully it works! hehe =D

childrens day today. probably a good opportunity for us to reminisce our childhood days, when we were young n innocent n life was just carefree days. hah, those good old days. and of cos, dun forget those childhood dreams! :)

hold my hands and walk with me.

tat! the ice cream chef :)

my oreo n cream ice cream, with gummy bears at the ice cream chef.
qinghong

so thats the end of this post prelim period. ice cream at the icecreamchef was fun, with qh jt n cheryl. and we went to thai express for tt clear tom yam steamboat thereafter. its becoming a bad routine man. my stomachs like building its immunity against it already!

and i read Mis Match, which was pretty interesting abt a cross cultured couple getting tgt.

and today we played tennis. yuhe anghong woonloong tiefu nikhil jianming and i. really had a good time under the sun! and my best fren was nice enuff to pair up with me! n hey we make a pretty gd team man, cos i just ride on his gd skills, i serve n he will do the job. haha. i screwed up a few times but he din do anything to me so tts really nice. but i tell u , the best things i like abt tennis, is the SUN! and the SHIIIOOOK feeling when u finally do a good pro serve. im gonna practise tt after the A's man. one more activity :)

so the results are coming back tmr. good luck ppl, we will walk thru this tgt :)

i was browsing thru the net and i saw this quote,

"Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. "

so true, and immediately i thought of smth......
really cool.
happiness is non-rivalry!! =D

so my sep hols is like ending. at its really last bits. but acty i think this week has been a nice week =) cos of......
latenightphonechats
deliciouscookies
tomyamsteamboat
icecreamattheicecreamcafe
dimsumdinner
shopping
dessertsat85
myfriedoyster
mydonuts
bananawalnutandnutella
poohstickers
addictivehabits
barcardibets
and of cos the mugging! heh, i learnt some stuff! =)

i think happiness is really for yourself to define, to weigh. i think we can all be happy people if we learn to be contented and derive utility from simple things, which is why i constantly remind myself not to expect too much. heh.

ok. 5 days. 7 papers.
i can do it!! so can YOU! :)

beauty of nature

i like to observe the shape of that distorted moon
and see how the stars bright up the sky at night
and watch raindrops fall from the sky.

its 31st july. jc life seems to be ending really really soon, just as im beginning to feel slightly at home in school, just when i slowlybegin to look forward to school. well theres still about 3 months plus to go, i gotta make the best out of this.

today has been a really significant day, cos ming n my routine jog to ecp turned out really differently. ok la, admittedy we slacked n walked for almost half the distance we usually run, talking about issues and stuff. and we climbed on a breakwater and really thought about the things we want, the priorities we have. to me, it was like moments of connect 2, with more fun elements n distractions like watching small crabs climbing up the breakwater. i havent had such intellectual conversations with anyone for such a long time, it was a good wake up call. i screamt many wants and wishes, and i'll try my best to work for all of them. :) u too dearie, im sure u will find your happiness upon finishing those things u set out to do!

if you really know me well enough, i dont really get angry at people easily. and i dun like to remember these negative things cos i believe that its really tiring to hate someone. thats why im learning to love people universally! :) but today i got so freaking pissed by a fellow schoolmate. like seriously pissed. okay actually im over it now, but my blood was boiling this afternoon. i never knew that people could be so crude and uneducated in their actions, seriously, i think bitch is the only one word i have for her. ARGH!!!

things seem to be accelerating, and i wonder if its too fast. at least we are much closer than before, at least i can talk to you properly now. but im afraid that i'll get addicted to this routine of being so close to someone again. and fearful that im not ready for these all. in fact, im not even sure if you're in this together with me.

the amount of happiness money can buy

today's issue of the sunday times life section is really really interesting in my opinion. theres this big whole article about money and the luxury goods found in singapore. seriously i would LOVE to write about such stuff for my gp essay. thats so ME :)

theres this article tt ppl are willing to spend mroe on bags n luxury goods, which means tt singaporeans are becoming richer. this is one thing i cant deny, cos on my part i also hope to earn enuff bucks to indulge in such pamperings. like nice manicures n pedicures n facials n spas. but considering what a rough n clumsy person i am, i think these will be kinda wasted somehow. haha.

and,
theres this ranking of exp foods, n one of the featured one was pen cai. this $5k pot of super good food to serve 10 ppl. which means each persons share is a whooping 500 bucks! like omg. maybe eat tt with plain rice la, so tt makes it $500.30. heh. i wonder how much these ppl earn a month, to afford to eat such expensive meals. think about it, 500 bucks, can be spend on adopt 2 children from 3rd world countries. which means tt the amt of money is enuff for their food n shelter. how unfair can the world get? and theres this champagne mooncakes. like 888 for 8 pcs, which is 111 for one piece. but at least it looks REALLY good. n theres only 20 boxes made. but 10 boxes are alr sold. WAHHH! theres also this CACAO fair at vivo this weekend. featuring chocolates. what a heaven vivo must be this weekend. seriously. n theres this shop tt sells chocolate greeting cards. but one card is like 50 freaking bucks. give me a card like tt, i will kill u cos i will be torn between eating it & destroying the nice card while i eat it OR not bearing to eat it until someday when moulds grow on it.

but im glad for one thing, further down the paper nearing the end of it, theres this article about cheap sweets. like the white rabbit milk candy and HALLS sweets [30 for 1 buck?] and alot of those cheap n good stuff, which kinda contrasts the articles in front - that no matter what money can buy, sometimes the stuff tt are cheap can be really good too!

which reminds me, there are LOADS OF STICKERS [the baby pooh ones especially :)] which are CHEAP[like 4 pcs for a buck!] n SUPER NICE [ like the one i pasted on hongs maths tys] at the bedok pasar malam!!! i love shopping at the pasar malam, where u just walk n eat n see many many jia-pa-lang stuff which u dun really use but u will be super tempted to buy cos they are so cheap n inviting. hehe. i feel like a kid all over again, the stickers give me so much joy.

and so today, out of curiosity i asked one of the vendors - how long will this pasar malam last this time. she said, ONE MONTH!
like OH MY GOD - that means 2 weeks and 4 more days for more chickenwings n chickenchop n friedicecream n 5for$2tutukuehs n otahs n stickers n peanuts n pao n kebabs n takoyaki n friedbanans n friedjackfruits n ramlyburgers n rotijohn n mangos n rambutans n toys n fishballs n icecream n fishfillet n cheesetofu n i think u get my point. =D
but i need to watch my spending too. i spent like close to 120 bucks this week. =/

and the mugging needs to start. look at the things i need to do at hand......

you dont know how much joy :) you bring.

and i wonder if i will ever have the chance to let you know.

yea, these are DURIANS. dun they look good. =) and these are the durian eaters!

hahaha omg i still cant believe ming n i ate durians today!!!! so cool man, first time in my life i eat them with a fren. n we ate at the playground la! romantic seh. LOL. we seriously ate so much i feel so bloated im so gonna spend tmr's chem free periods running!!!

i love walking around pasar malam. and buying those pooh stuff. it makes me happy. like a small kid all over again :) i bought these stickers, which can glow in the dark! COOL right!!!!!!! =D

happiness - is durians, stickers, fried ice cream and good company :)
and welcome to the club, angel 3!

black monday

isnt the sky at ecp nice! i wanna go there n watch fireworks this year! =)



today was a bad bad bad bad black monday. but its times like these, when i know who are the people who matters the most. when i realise who are the ones whose small actions can bring a smile to my face. and to you people, thank you so much. with love :)



cycled at ecp yesterday with munkay boonsin qinghong and vivian sao! haha. finally finally met her!!!! =) shes nice but kind of quiet. i was really noisy n loud compared to her. heh nvm hopefully the group of us will go rollerblade at ecp soon. den maybe we can make better frens then. hahaha. n juecheng came with his jane fren, n he was so late tt when he came we left. gd job us! =)

the wonderful weekends

COOL!

i slept for 13 hours last night!
i have a new skin!
its the fabulous weekends!
i found a cool website! CLICK HERE!

heh :):):):):)

yesterday was a lovely day.
cos..

love is, ice cream on a waffle n root beer n choco eclair pretzels n cakes n naruto, with the bestest company =)



and happiness, is 5 new temasek exercise books! haha. acty i dun noe why i buy them, maybe can do math exam papers practce inside. aha! =)



but the chemistry paper wasnt too good. the mcq totally killed me n i din finish my written paper cos i din have enuff time. argh..

happiness

yay new skin!
personally i think this is much nicer than previous one, maybe cos its simplier. no more complicated stuff. simplicity. =)

today we talked about what makes a civillised society. but acty i did the whole thing without knowing wad a civillised society was. rather, i considered how ppl should be to make the soceity a livable place.

there were 12 words.
freedom love honesty respect responsibility humility
cooperation trust peace simplicity unity and happiness

n i think the one tts hardest to define is happiness. and to achieve too. while mrs tan was rambling on and on in class about happiness n stuff like tt, i thought about what makes me happy. actually there are many, if i would want to count about the lastest few stuff tt has made me smile.
the nice guy n june who shared with me tt umbrella while walking to sch tgt today. the pt of blood donation when the nurse told me tt e needle was alr inside n alot of blood was acty flowing out. finding the SBC after a long walk. seeing the basketball team shoot in every single shot. looking at the photos tt i use to take. seeing glendon in vj today. cheering for the tj soccer team, especially eepin rahman n haziq. hearing from imp again. noeing tt i have survived another week. theres gonna be pe tmr! doing the grpwork with daniel weideng handoko teerapong benny n mingyee was smth tt made me happy too. so was playing hangman with them. and reading the msges tt cheryl sends.
so many simple small things, but i feel happy.
but in further depth, i think happiness can only be reached if u are willing to follow your heart n dreams, when u do the things that u really want to do without having any ulterior motives or evil intentions. when u are true to urself n the people around u, when u learn to tolerate others for their shortocmings, when u see their flaws as what tt amkes them unique, when u endure n bear with their negative side. when u love the ppl around u and dun judge them for who they are. when u forgive them for their mistakes n forget those incidences.
den i though of the quote from pursuit of happyness. something along the line tt happiness can only be pursued, but it cannot be achieved.

so whats more true?