post a levels :)

been 5 days since the papers ended! haha. and i spend the past 4 nights sleeping outside. finally im home, nice n comfy in bed =)

lets see.. 20th. right after the paper tt day i got my manicure, french one and played 3 hrs of shiok badminton :)


21st. a very very special day :) cos it marks the first day of freedom! and it was also the start of the class chalet. tt day we chilled in the chalet and bridged quite a bit. midnight was fun! ming hong tf and i pooled at the pool place and we walked to a nearby coffee shop to watch soccer. and we also walked like around pasir ris tt area for a long long time. its quite cool u noe. tt place has like a diff time zone, there were 2 adjacent coffee shop open at 2am and a fruit stall! like who will buy foods at 2am? and its quite funny cos we were doing really mad stuff, like using the elderly playground and the boys were pretending to be batting with some melons n veg. and so we watched soccer. hahahah croatia won! weee heeee :D

22nd. we went to tfs hse to take the bbq stuff, and shun bian slept at the clubhse. i was serriously uber tired so i knocked out immediatel in the pool room while ming and hong played by themselves. yea u read correctly ming played pool! haha change is the only constant huh. :)
and we all slept for quite some time b4 getting to buying the bbq food. seriousl smth damm funny happened on the way la. cant believe im tt silly. stupid bus 10. the bbq was alright, but kind of a hassle cos it started raining. but i think its thru such simple n smal activities tt acy reveal alot abt ppl and their character. having said tt, oh wells. tt night we bought alchohol from cheers. super ex man. so ming won her 4 boottles la. so i paid up. and we bought a few bottles tgt with wl ah nik ming and me we drank at the beach. quite fun, and tt night tf n i went to the beach for a walk n sat down to just chill. but it was really funny though cos there were many people walking n cycling by so it was kind of noisy. haha. den we went back to the chalet n squueeze next to jenny wenxuan ming and hong to sleep.

the 23rd was just spend packing up. cleaning the place n the mess and bk breakfast with the class. ok not the whole class ate bk la, half of us ate macs but we ate at bk. den ming hong tf n i watched enchanted. haha i tell u its hilarious man, exp the beginning of the show. where it was so ridiculouos n lame tt i couldnt stop laughing at ah reaction. hahaha. but seriously can u believe tt 2 big guys went to watch enchanted? lol. aft tt i came home to get some fresh change of clothes n met jc n chor at bugis to shop for mk n jt bday presents, which was accomplished very quickly. hehe cos got me! ;) and aft tt tf joined us and we went to marina bay to eat steamboat! haha ok i kinda coerced them to go but hey guys it was fun right! but seriously tt place had so much meat it kind of stinks. but at least they had stingray n better prawns den seoul garden. and their soup was nicer but there wasnt air con. but it was fun cos i had peeled prawns n cooked food presented to me, minus the fact tt some silly person injured himself when cutting crab. den the 4 of us went to watch a late night movie, at tampinese again! ok we din go back to tm, but we went cs n watch fred claus. i tell u fred claus is seriously super super nice i think everyone shld go watch it! its a nice christmasy show with the morals and love but its not right smack in ur face but it comes with a nice twist. so go catch it! really! :D and then chor n jc went off, or they walked to chor se while i suggested tt tf n i walk to simpang. haha ok obviously we din make it, got lost halfway at some tamp simei area so we cabbed to the airport. it was nice to chill at the viewing gallery but i was far too tired to even talk, cos i was tring to tell tf smth but my words were like blah n my eyes were shutting down. so i fell asleep.
24th cabbed to the club house to catch some sleep. was really so freaking tired tt i slept on n off so many times. finally woke up at 11 plus n got a good imba meal at the caffebar. finally i got to eat there man, those nice creamy pasta! then we went back to the condo to bath n headed to pp agan to buy some food stuff for jt hse stayover. met joanna and i was late again as usual, but im glad tt her hate for vs boys is not a universal thing. heh. when we got there at tats hse we were alr so so late tt all the guys were there n started alr. acty it was really fun, everyone of the guys turned up. chor mk leo jt qh jc boon james and eric. plus cheryl shuyu and joanna. plus tf n me. so many ppl! anyway, happy happy birthday joontat and munkay! :D i had a hell lot of fun just playing bridge card games n having lots of alcohol. was kinda drunk tt night but i din do any silly things. :) but it was a hell lot of fun la, thanks guys for making it possible and for being so understanding. everything would have been perfect without someone there to make a fool of himself. really. tt night i also had a really gd sleep, thanks to tat who gave us a room to our own. really cool man the bed frame. wahaha.

25h was spend cleaning the place up n fulin breakfast/lunch. den headed to borders at pp where i learn a few recipes which i dun mind trying sometime soon! heh.

hell those were such fun fun fun days. sigh i miss those times man. and my big bolster..... oh well nvm bring on the chill times! heh. :)

and here it all begins.

so the last week of pre a-level days is gone just like that. ive studied my best, gave my all. it all begins tml, this is really been a roller coaster ride, the past 2 yrs we have been moving slowly up the slope. now we are right at the top. tmr, it will go WOOOSH and down we will go. so fast 3 weeks will fly by. and den we will party n party n party.. =)

to my dear dear frens, [acty u shldnt be reading this, haha!] stay calm n focused. we have prepared n mugged so much, just make sure all the mugging counts! do your best so that come next yr, we will be receiving our results with big smiles on our faces.

the past few days has really been quite an emotional coaster ride too, thank you for the ones who stayed by me and held me close. i really am lucky. and i'll cherish everything.

how odd, today i saw something that was so so familiar 2 years ago. haha. but i was glad, quite amused actually. cos i merely saw an image of myself, 2 yrs ago. time doesnt change everything does it? =p

of goodbyes and reflections #2

okok heres part 2-the boys. i really think ss cannot make it! this was how we looked a long time ago. happy and mad. think this is one of the nicest photo taken la, very natural. :D

so here they are. according to the photo. anghong jianming junxiang yuhe woonloong tiefu and nikhil. this is taken during my bday surprise from theem. =) this is another group of people whom ive grown rather close to during the 2 yr stay at vj. well at least i had their company when we go for lectures n during the breaks.

heres specially for my best friend! anghong!! =D

this is one really special friend, cos i remember that right from the start i found him really queer. very kanchiong n different. haha. how fate plays their tricks on us ar, to think tt he's like my best guy fren in school now. i guess life has its way la. cos after all the lectures tt ive been thru with him next to me, all those many many many tutorials tt we sat tgt, all the times when we ate tgt with mingg and those tuition times [ok 8 sessions n i pangsehed]. i began to really see how special a person he can be. and actually deep down he's a really great guy.

thanks hong, for always being there to listen to me ramble when im troubled, for enduring my nonsense when i feel shitty, for laughing alongside me and not at me, for always being there to give me the answers i need to my chemical questions [like, whats the angle to a linear compound?], for always being there to company me when everyone elses walks away, for always being free to play pool or watch movies with me. for all of that, thanks dude! jiayou with studying, im sure u will do well la. just chill n relax. but must study also la, n rest more!! i wish you happiness in life!:)

and of cos, i cant miss out my pw mate right! lim yuhe. actually i can talk about yuhe and woonloong tgt. like hello they are permanently together la! seriously. they have like the same watch, and they like to stick to each other n touch each other in class. G is for gay! =p but i noe deep down they are straight la, right. please let me be right.

yuhe was my pw mate so i knew him slightly more. like how he can be really really random, how he eats so much, n he is really super good with racket games, bad/squash/tennis he owns man. wl, on the other hand is more of the attention seeking kind. he loves to sing, so we have spend quite a bit of time listening to him sing, and honestly la, i think he isnt tt bad!

and then theres nikhil jianming and junxiang. these are people whom im nt as clsoe to, but they are still great people to hang out with. but havent really gotten to noethem as well as the rest, guess tt would take time. expecially to get jx n jm off their computer games, guess tt will take a long time. hah.

ok heres what everyones waiting for. especially joontat huh ;)
here's one for tiefu too! haha see we take photos tgt willingly la. no need to try to snap a photo of us with everyone else ducking away =p
tiefu.. he has been a really special friend. last yr we werent so close, so he was always this mysterious person who kept a lot to himself. as in i din noe much abt him la. but his magic tricks super cool. hahaha. but this yr things somehow got better, n i got to know him much better. =)thanks dude, for all the times u kept me going when things werent easy. for those magic tricks tt never fail to amaze me. for those long mugging sessions we have survived thru tgt, and many more to come. for those dinners n badminton sessions. for having that faith n trust in me.
maybe the coming 1 month plus is gonna be tough, but i think it will only make us stronger people. stay strong! theres 5 other people walking by your side. hahahahah. [those who noe what i mean, shuddup!] i wish u days of laughter and sunshine, on top of all the studying which are inevitable. but work hard, someday i wish u will be satisfied with the results u get :)

ok so thats part 2 done. i definitelywish tt i can know this grp of ppl better after the A's, and keep in contact with them. especially when we have all the time in the world. =DD

a handful more other posts to come. it takes time! :)

to my dear frens, cherish the mugging time now. there is still time, keep believing in yourself and dun dun dun dun dun give up. cos i think the world never gives up on any of you, unless u give up on yourself. but of cos, dun forget abt the world while u are busy studying. keep in close touch with yur loved ones and the things u love to do. take breaks n have enough sleep! love u all loads :)

rid of my eye bags and i'll treat u lunch!

sigh. if i got one scoop of icecream from everyone who commented on my eye bags this wweek i'll probably have exploded due to too much fat. haha. arghh... is it really tt bad?! i do sleep enough la. really!!! but even my tutee told me just now, she was like " wah u look very stressed leh. eye bags all come out liao." so.. as my title goes..

this week has been one crazy week, school was actually quite not like school cos we go to school to take attendance and then stay in the lib to study. haha. but reality hit me a few times. a few thoughts were really scary. i came 16 months ago with nothing, and i really pondered on what i will be leaving with? maybe a decent A level cert to get myself to the uni, maybe a handful [ 3? haha!] of friends whom i can count on - like call up at 4am in the morning if i need them to listen to me ]. oh yar, definitely independence. other than that, i really cant think of wad else. which would be really sad. but then again, maybe theres much more that ive gained tt i havent realise, come may take the long term to appear.

but of cos, despite all
the down parts of this week [like theeconsre n thetiringnights n selfstudysessions n theannoyinggplesson n thezibiblues n thesorangeconslecture n themissingwalletepisode n thetimesmykneecapseemstobefailingme n thedaywhichigaveuprunningandwalkedashortdistance n thereallyreallysleepinducingchemlesson],
there were the good things [like thechillingsessionoftruthordare n thekfcmeal n theafternoonicecreamretreat n thenicemotivatingsmses n phonecallsfromfriendswhoivebeentoobusytocatchupwith n theindianrojakandthepattayarice n thecornettos n theshilinoystermeesua].
i can only say
the bad things happen, to make the good ones gooder :)

i think the imprending exams have made some people really scary, to the extent that i dun even dare talk to you sometimes. i feel like im losing you. please come back, dun let the stress take the joy we used to share, dun forget the many more things in life tt we hold dear.. i wish i was brave enough to tell this straightly to you, but somehow knowing you so well has given me the gut feeling tt u wont absorb what i say on the spot, but hopefully this would trigger smth in you :)

ahem..
rivers know this, there is no hurry.
we shall get there someday :)
-winniethepooh quotes.

happy weekends!
its 2 days away from the prelimmms!

yea, these are DURIANS. dun they look good. =) and these are the durian eaters!

hahaha omg i still cant believe ming n i ate durians today!!!! so cool man, first time in my life i eat them with a fren. n we ate at the playground la! romantic seh. LOL. we seriously ate so much i feel so bloated im so gonna spend tmr's chem free periods running!!!

i love walking around pasar malam. and buying those pooh stuff. it makes me happy. like a small kid all over again :) i bought these stickers, which can glow in the dark! COOL right!!!!!!! =D

happiness - is durians, stickers, fried ice cream and good company :)
and welcome to the club, angel 3!

black monday

isnt the sky at ecp nice! i wanna go there n watch fireworks this year! =)



today was a bad bad bad bad black monday. but its times like these, when i know who are the people who matters the most. when i realise who are the ones whose small actions can bring a smile to my face. and to you people, thank you so much. with love :)



cycled at ecp yesterday with munkay boonsin qinghong and vivian sao! haha. finally finally met her!!!! =) shes nice but kind of quiet. i was really noisy n loud compared to her. heh nvm hopefully the group of us will go rollerblade at ecp soon. den maybe we can make better frens then. hahaha. n juecheng came with his jane fren, n he was so late tt when he came we left. gd job us! =)

patience. and have faith :)

there's pasar malam at bedok!!! i wonder if qh will have the time to spare to go eat all the junk food tgt, my old pasar malam kaki. haiz.

sometimes when i heard ppl slamming another person like mad, i feel all my insides turning. cos the extent of bitterness in their words often remind me of the times when i was young. was tt also how much the people around me hated me? was tt also how they condemmed me? it feels so bad, i wish i can protect all the people around me from being hurt by such words. cos i believe no one deserves that feeling.


i guesss at the end of the day, all i can tell myself is
patience. and have faith :)

today 2 friends went shopping.
we so sweet right, same colour top! haha. n it was coincidence k! even met jenny with AHEM n she was also wearing brown! browns the in colour man :D


and we tried on many many clothes.


and even shades....


and we finally made our debut trip to INDOCHINE!!!!!!!
hahahha. indochine is love man.


hey babe thanks for the wonderful time. n yes we're gonna be indochining till we're in our 2os.. then 30s.. n even when we are married. hahahaha. n dun forget u said u will tell me if anything does, n i will tell u too! =D
so how does indochining once a month and bitching on the beach once a fortnight sound? =D

and we're so sweet la. hahahahha. such "gentlemans". we msged each other at the same moment to take care, go home safely n msg each other to inform tt we reach home safely. ain tt sweet!

i finally got the photos to my birtdahy! here's half all of them =)

it was a great night outing with the gang. super fun, just dinnering n making noise. photos when i get them =)

something from within

today i finally feel like writing about something ive kept within me for a long time. many a times i have the urge to pen this down but i often feared tt i cant find the right words to use, and im afriad the tone of this whole thing will come out wrong. but im gonna give it a try anyway, its been properly reflected during my time away in cambodia. i think such things are like goals, they should be written down n shared with all, so that it becomes more than something within, but becomes a goal tt the people around me can help me achieve too =)

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a
kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring,
all of which have the potential to turn a life around. ~Leo Buscaglia

i should be nice to all the people around me,
because i know how good it feels when people are nice to me. and i want to let them enjoy that feeling of goodness.

i should not to judge the people around me. i try to tolerate and bear with the shit i get, and befriend the owner of all the crap n try to help them change.
because i know how sucky it feels to be outcasted. because i know how it feels to have people talking bad about you behind your back. because i once felt friendless and alone. i rmb the days in p school when classmates din like me cos i was boastful and trust me, these things are obvious and i hated the feeling i got. and i dun wan someone else to feel that way.
becuase i know tt we human beings arent perfect. come on, even me myself have many flaws. i have a bad record of time, so ive rarely been punctual when meeting up with friends. i talk too much alot of times and probably irritate the shit out of some of my frens. i can be rather self centered, espeically on days when im down n i just wish the world would revolve around me. and its probably going to be a long list to come. but hey! everyones not perfect. i must learn to love the people around me for who they are, love them for their shortcomings and i think i would be able to build better bonds with them.

i should try my best to curb my anger. to refrain from losing my temper. this is why i tend to take things lightly, or as the guys would put it, tt " i will only get angry for 30s".
becasue i know that i am darn good at saying the wrong things when im angry, and doing rash things tt i am bound to regret when i cool down later. this is why i want to practise keeping cool and controlling my temper. i rmb reading from somewhere b4, " never return an angry word with another angry word. it is usually the second word tt causes the trouble."

i should remind myself to be honest, to say the truth.
because its tiring to have to constatnly remember to cover all the loopholes tt will destroy ur lie, and its even more tiring to have to keep telling more lies to cover up for the first one.
because i have lost the trust of close friends before. and trust isnt an invisible thing, once its broken u can feel it right smack in your face tt things are different immediately.

i should try to be there for my friends, especially make time for those who were once close but have sort of drifted away from. try to give them a listening ear when they need one. and make the effort, arrange n organise my time so tt i have the occassion catching up sessions with all of them.
because there were times when i was fallen n failed, been down in the dumps when i din noe who to turn to, when i din noe who would be willing to listen. and that loneliness would only make things worst. so i shld try hard to be there for my friends.


i should try to be more sensitive to the people around me.
becasue we tend to focus so much on ourselves, on having fun, of getting the best out of things tt we neglect how the people aorund us would feel. this is probably one of my weakest pts cos i always get super high easily, so the next time i do something really insensitive just tell me straight in the face thank you.

Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by
midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can
muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be
the same again. ~Og Mandino

feeling fab today! 8th may. haha. did YOGA. walau was so strectched tt my body feels soft now. haha. i think elroy is right. nuah is the word man. took some reallly nice fotos cos the sofa was yellow n we were all in yellow shirts. n jenny n i had yellow socks sommore! the ppl from s48 took a foto too but i dun haf it :( here's the ff and another one of ming n i :)

today was a really really fun day, minus the sucky phys lecture n the boring gp tutorials.

thank you to yuhe handoko sihua teerapong jovin munkay jonathon joontat xinyi angel chormiang joanna meiling serene john benny yeowchoon alvin joel crystal babyjie n tugmun for their smses. n benny pong n han [the 3 of them] for their massager toy. n my maid for tt nodding head thingy. n janice for her bookmark n encouraging note. n joanna for her notebook n earrings! =D

elegant eleven was REALLY sweet today cos everyone [ jenny mingyee sihua yuhe woonloong anghong jianming tiefu junxiang and nikhil] all celebrated for me at tf's hse with a tiramisu cake n a nice card.followed by alot of water spplashing n running abt, just like small kids. i had alot of fun! thank u guys so so much. =) but it was super funy cos it was a freaking hot afternoon n the 4 candles tt i had on the cake were relighting candles! so i blew n blew n blew. -.-' but i had fun, n it was quite a surprise. though i felt tt the way tf asked me to go to his hse was super funny. he was like " want come my hse play pool?" like on a super random tues afternoon. haa haa. but thanks ppl love u lots =) photos, not with me.

after tt i met cheryl to study. she bought me like alot of stuff. a birthday card tt has some really magical thing abt it. a new pencil box n a new water bottle, all winnie the pooh. and a nice huggie pooh head. thanks dear. =)

n while studying she snndely wanted to buy water, so we had to walk like up n down the pathway leading to ntuc, n she was like wanting to look at old ppl / mad ppl. while i was trying my best to drag her back to study. haha. on our way back, the guys suddenly pop out with a cake n started their loud rendition of happy birthday. i was so touched i teared la! cos i thought they were all too busy tt they forgot. haha. turns out they din. thanks you qinghong joontat darren n boonsin, and of cus cheryl! played alot n the nice mocha cake bcame like cement with some sai after alot of addition of ingredients, whats new. haha. some photos we took tonight =)

acty i wanted to tell someone something today, as an attempt to make one of my birthday wishes come true. or i was hoping that that someone would tell me something. but in the end, that someone did not say anything n i guess, im not going to say anything too. probably cos im scare tt things wun go the way i want, or maybe im not so sure if i want it anyway. maybe i should wait, let time tell. hopefully this is the right decision to make, is it?

Birthday dinner with shuyu shermaine joanna and meiling today! we went to newyorknewyork, my first time! haha a great 4 hrs sitting there just eating alot of food n cotton candy n taking like a lot of photos. lemme define alot, for the quantity of photos. like, more den 200 plus. haha can u believe it?????????? like WOW. n i had a LOT of fun. thanks dears so much for the wonderful night. and for that cake surprise tt u guys were giving me. i really appreciate it. love u guys lots. the ribs i ate tonight!
us!
another one =)


and SAT test today was. ARGHHHHH, pissed me off just to think about it man. guess wad, they said no electronice devices - so to be safe i din bring my hp, n ipod. felt so freaking helpless la the whhole morning. but i even forgot to bring my CALCULATOR!!! like wad the fucking hell la. knn u try doing maths paper in limited time n u still need to do all the manual calculations. wahh seriously feels like shit. i felt so freaking tired after the paper man. oh well its over hopefully i dun do too badly. im really keeping my fingers crossed!

and corner with love is really nice. =)